Back to Panama....

Yes, plans have changed yet again. A trip to Panama is necessary and soon! Don't know how this is going to happen....I just can't do this at this time. Since my mother had her stroke, it seems the only place I visit is Panama. Haven't had time for any vacation, have been only once to see my daughter in London, had to cancel my trip to Curaçao....what next?

I received a frantic call the other day: one of my mother's nurses got a job at a hospital and is leaving. As if getting professionals to move in with my mother and care for her is not hard enough. So I immediately asked my cousin to start looking...have some candidates lined up by the time I get there. Screening and interviewing and deciding....not my idea of a relaxing trip, which is what I really need at the moment.

This will be also the time, I hope, to take a hard look at the situation. Is this the best we can do for her? is it possible that my mother needs to be in place where she can socialize with others her age? maybe have a more interesting life? Right now, she lives on her own with the people that care for her. It was the easiest solution since neither my sisters nor I live in Panama. It has worked so far...but who knows? More decisions, and this time so close to the Holidays. Let's see what happens....